Ngo Ko Toi

hello there.. whats up!!.

My name is mika lui hahn 梁翰

i can act very cool...

Born : 29/03/08

Weight at birth : 3.69kg

Length at birth : 51.5cm

Finally after so many year..... this is my son "Ngo Ko Toi"...hmmm. as my husband always remind me..... very often smilling and telling me " sayang, Ngo Ko Chai". I am still coping to play the roles of a mother. Now he is chubby already. the above photo taken when he is 3 weeks old.

updates

03/04/08 (6 days)

weight 3.8kg length 54 cm

07/06/08 (2 months 1 week)

weight 6.4kg length 64cm

Baby Naming

I got a funny mail few days back with the title "Why Chinese must not have English names"
below is the funny reasons but not just English name but i also have difficulty to find chinese name for my baby Mika. The chinese name will sounds funny as well when written and pronounce in roman. It is just the fact that we are mostly use our name in roman writing instead of in chinese writing and in fact all our official letter/document will require use to use our name in roman writing. How ahh if we apply credit card with just my name written in chinese. couldn't imagine what they will think about us ahhh...

I seldom have the chance to write my chinese anme but it might not the same for others. I found out that my sister use it pretty often caused she teach in chinese school. for me, no chance at all!!! not even once a year. thus i no need to change my chinese name eventhough the charecter combination is not really good. how lah...if i sitting at one corner writting my name in chinese for the sick of writing....#$%@@ . I don't think i would like this to be happened.

Why Chinese must not have English names

• >Anne Chang> (Mandarin)- Dirty>
• >Anne Chin (Mandarin) - Keep quiet>
• >Faye Chen (Mandarin) - Dusty>
• >Carl Cheng (Hokkien) - Buttock>
• >Monica Cheng (Hokkien) - Touching your buttocks>
• >Lucy Leow (Hokkien) - You are dead>
• >Jane Tan (Mandarin) - Frying eggs>
• >Suzie Leow (Hokkien) - Lost till death>
• >Henry Mah (Mandarin) - Hate your mum>
• >Corrine Tai (Hokkien) - Poor fellow>
• >Paul Chan (Mandarin) - Bankrupt>
• >Nelson Tan (Mandarin) - Bird laying eggs>
• >Leslie Tong (Mandarin) - Rubbish bin>
• >Carmen Teng (Hokkien) - Leg hair long>
• >Connie Mah (Mandarin) - Call your mother>
• >Danny See (Hokkien) - Squeeze you to death>
• >Rosie Teng (Hokkien) - Screws and nails>
• >Pete Tsai (Hokkien) - Nose droppings>
• >Macy Koh (Cantonese) - Never die before>
• >Michael Tan (Cantonese) - sell chicken eggs

so now comes the funny story while finding suitable name for my baby Mika. My husband sir name is 梁 and in roman writing is LUI.... yeah this sound like money in cantonese and hokien as well.

My hubby always wanted to name our baby with just one name instead of with the middle name. so one find day, on the way back and he have something in mind and seems very happy to name our baby mika as 梁 漢. He like it very much and its sound pretty good then naturally we talk about it in english writing. I started it with "Lui Hon"... then he suddenly blurt out commented that "Hon" is not nice and we should use han yu ping ying as "Han" and he is pretty exciting with this name...he was very happy repeating the name as lui han's. I don't know why i just have the urge immediately. At that time we haven't agree on any english name yet and i just answer him "good", "very goods"... lui Han's and the english name is "han lui" and since daddy always spent lavishly... it's a good name!!!! believe me, at that time i really cannot tahan and we just laugh hysterically. my Husband is always the spender.. and i have always reminded him..... i guess if our baby name after this name, the next time i just have to call my baby to alert him. i am ok with this... and gues what of course he said no...... to this. But really i like this name pronounce in cantonse.

we still have not come to any conclusion on the chinese name yet... since the LUI... is the surname, and this is associated with money and its seems pretty hard to only have first name without the middle name.


Finding a name with surname Lui (without middle name)

• Bin Lui - good fotune, can use the magic to create money. 梁賓, 彬, 斌
• Jay Lui/jie lui - all the friend will run away including the relatives 梁杰, 傑
• Wan Lui - sound good for fortune but it's neither sound nice nor have good meaning in chinese.
• Wu Lui - can mean got money in hokkien or sounds no money in cantonese and the pronounsation for 梁武 is terrible in cantonses.
• Yong Lui - as bad as the father who just spend spend n spend but the chinese name 梁勇 not bad also
• Fei lui & Feng lui- couldn't imagine!! but at least sound good in cantonese... 梁 飛, 霏 or 梁丰 (my hubby choice, very easy to write) and my choice is 梁峰.

I really run out of idea as i am not chinese educated, its seems pretty hard to find a good name as those sound nice and have good meaning in chinese will become terrible after converting it to roman writing.......how ahhh... I am welcome for any suggestion.......anybody!!

Endeavor with my new journey of life

Time passed by very fast since my last blog. I am very grateful to be able to blog again at my work place. To begin with the story of a new life and a new journey of life. I am finally expecting a baby after so many years and my most important thing now is to give birth to a healthy baby boy and the most exciting thing is to see him for the first time. i mean face to face.... i already really excited to see his picture in 4D. from little tiny round images to something look like a baby with eyes, nose, hands and legs and also to find out that he is a baby boy during my 17 weeks.

I am now 19 weeks pregnant and a bit relieve that I have almost gone through half of the journey.

Last week was quite worried as my screening test result came out positive for down syndrome. We decided to go for amniotic test, where the doctor will insert a needle to the amniotic sac to take some sample of my amniotic fluid and then send it to the lab at Singapore for testing. Luckily the results come out pretty fast and at least now I am less worried to find out that he is normal and can concentrating on more thing now. I guess this is my nature, just less worried instead of have a peace of mind. After all I still have to go through the other half journey of my pregnancy. i am telling myself, lets worried for one thing at a time, I am not thinking anything yet after birth. How ahh becoming a mother, can I cope with it? Whatever is it, I am really happy to play this role…

One thing about the amniotic test is its pose minor risk for miscarriage and the doc seems very misleading to tell us that the fees is one sixty. My hubby have a shock when the RM200 notes given to settle the bill is not enough caused the bill is actually RM1600 instead……….. guess what I didn’t complain or angry at all, this is not me. I just tell my baby mika, no worried, mummy is rich and as long as you are okay, mummy will be very happy. ya the truth is i can afford that but not really rich leh.

The doctor will perform a through scan to find out the baby development on my next visit. and i will be less worried again to find out my baby to have a complete development. All these fees for checkups are not cheap leh. So far I visited 4 times plus one amniotic test and have already spend about RM2400. Found out that the bill for "planned csec" will come around 5k and if induced and then only csec, the bill will go up to 8K… no play play leh… I couldn’t afford this 10 years ago and thus make this as one of the advantage to have baby at older age.... :)


For time being, I still not able to experience my baby doing the kicking and punching yet. Although my tummy is quite huge as compared to one of my friend that is also expecting at the same time. She already can feel it. Guess what, maybe because i created a pretty large space for my baby to move around and its really exciting to find out how is the kicking and punching feeling, and hopefully i will able to sense it by next week.

Lost n Found

I believed everyone has gone through this kind of experience. I feel very grateful that i found back something that i lost!!!! The recent case is reffering to my phone. I lost it two days ago and today also! everyone told me that if i lost it the 3rd time, i will never find it back.

I felt lucky when i find back my lost belonging, but if we think twice, why must i lost it at the first place. So, I am not really lucky but consider pat hang chung tai hang!!!

i went to selayang for lunch two days ago, go all the way there so far and worried that i can't make it back to my office by 2:00pm...
the food is nice and also lucky to reach office at 2:00pm. Everything is find until i realise that my phone is not in my pouch!!!!! I am panicking borrowing somebody phone to call my H/P... called once and nobody pick-up the line and then go for second attemp also the same.

my heart broken!!!! n know i have to act fast!!!! i couln't remember my sister phone... n i was thinking if i am lucky enough, i must have left it in her car!!! you know lah.... sometime we just trying to create something to comfort ourself.

what's next!!! i call the only number that i remember. thats my hubby!!! without delaying and i quickly update my hubby and ask him to the necessary!!!!

i call back my hubby later and he is giving me the good news.... "your phone with the shop owner!!! he asked to go n collect!!!!.....ya!!!!!!" ok!!! but neither me or my hubby know the place!!! my mind got so much questionns. when? its very far...collect from who...then only my husband know i left it at selayang. Luckly my sister can help me to collect the phone on behalf... RM50 gone to the ah soh who collected my phone.... so happen that my sister don't have small notes..... i was begging to my sis, why not you tell the her " sorry ahh i only got rm50!!! can you "jau fan RM20 to me for transport ka".....aiyah!!! but okay lah..

today, don't know what happen. again!!!!! i realise my pouch is not with me when i try to open my drawer. jia lat...!!!!!! i lost my phone again plus my pouch!!!! the key is inside.

too panicking already!!!! i check at my colleague place and its not there and without hessitate i ask her to call my phone and i quikly go to toilet and then heading to the canteen that i had lunch just know.... checking with few cleaners and one just started work at 1:00pm and the other incharge for different section

so no choice, i have to go back to find out whether my colleague is able to contact the person who collected my pouch. " i call once and nobody pick-up and second time couldn't go through." i think your phone is gone!!! the person off the phone!!!! " she replied. its really bad news to me.

I don't simply give up and heading to the canteen again!!!! brave my self to ask the only person i know and so happen that he sit nearby. trying my luck explaining and see whether he heard any phone ringging or see somebody suspicious. i know the chance is so slim after looking at his lonely face fully concentrating eating his food and the environment was so noisy. also the fact that l just remember which roll i sat but not the exact table....

thus i have no choice and go back to my office!!! my colleage told me that somebody pick up the phone. she asked the person to return the phone but the person didn't say anything and then hearing the pressing sound and then the line cut off and then cannot be contacted anymore!!!! at this time, i really cannot believe that i can find back my phone... someyone even suggested that i cancell my line.... so hopelessly and try my last effort, asking my colleague that just came back and bring me to the place that we had lunch just now...
i am feelling very grateful, eventhough i didn't find back my phone yet. they are really helpfull.... the other like "hak se wui" haaa!!! is this your phone!!!! ... one person sitting is at the same table, dismantling his phone... of course not lah that open!!! i asked him whether he saw my pouch and he answered "the table already clean up when i sit here, i think you should ask the cleanerlah"... i just said tQ and go away lah.... trying to identify the cleaner... and ask the other to pass the message, if she really found it, to return to me at 18th floor....
haaaa surprise, the other colleague call and the phone go through..... after brief conversation, !!!!!! i am straight heading to the legal firm opposite my office...without name... and just go.

Seems like also the ah soo collected my phoen at the toilet..!!!! the ah soo said she don't know how to use the phone and waiting for the colleague back for lunch... this round , hemmm no more RM50 ... i was so happy... !!! collecting my phone and continuing said tq to her... i really blank... i don't even remember i go to pee!!! just remember i go there washing hand but still remember that ouch is not with me when i washing my hand....just don't care!!! so happy!!! and very grateful the other colleague call and said"siapa yang ambil phone inin, sila pulangkan ke tingkat 18th. perbualan ini direkodkan... kita akan hantar ke balai untuk report....
and also messages were sent to my phone... asking to return the phone to my office at 18th floor...

Thank you very much to all who help me!!!


in my past... my biggest lost and found is my bag...and my hubby bag....
hubby do you still remember, we left both the bag at one of the restorant at genting!!! and we go all the way back to muar and only realise at the next day!!!!!!!

somebody so happenned go to genting and check for us.!!!!! luckly us!!!! the money still there...

Bentung

Today, i wanna talk about my home town bentung.
Bentung town is located around the hilly areas in the central of penisula malaysia..
I came to KL in 1989 right after i finished my secondary school for further study . Like what the chinese qoutes "ah ngau chut sang seang" the meaning is somesort like uneducated vilager go to big city....
not anymore.... bentung has gotten the city status since 2006... yeah at least there are some changes!!!! after so long and after all not so bad, i found few articles talking/promoting bentung when searching with googgle. ya I found the writing about Bentung Ice Cream, Bentung Sunday Market and breakfast at one of coffee shop around town Bentung Coffee Shop. The write ups and the photos are nice.
I start to eat bentung ice cream from young. I think they started the business before i born and I only know that now the ice cream business at bentung are from the same families.. I remembered that my parents always bring us for ice cream during my childhood years. Normally it is after dinner time... around 8:00pm and we went to Jaya super market or thong fatt for a walk and then go to kow poo for ice cream. The parking lot in front of kow poo use to be a big open air hawker center, with satay store, yau yu ong choi, nasi lemak and probably grilled chicken wing, and of course the ice cream and drinks from kow poo. I can't really recall any other food and i never been to kow poo for so long and i don't see the hawker center is still there .. just the kow poo shop is still surviving.



Nearby attraction at bentung are

• Chamang Baru water fall
• Batu 7, river
• Hutan Lipur Lentang (forest reserves)
• Kolam Air Panas (not recommended, caused here have nothing much to offer)
  

Other attraction further down to KL are

• Genting Highland
• Bukit Tinggi and few other resorts around the areas

The famous at Bentung are: -

• Ginger (The vegetables seller at KL try to con me… haaa. This is bentung ginger, very expensive one. Wanted to charge me Rm4.00 for one ginger… slightly bigger than palm size)
• Ice cream (check out here Bentung Ice Cream)
• Wantan Mee (wait till you try and you tell me. I am not fancy for wantan mee but my comment is the mee is nice… but too bad caused I didn’t buy the idea of eating the "mee" and caused my stomach full for half a day and couldn't take anything else) the wantan mee served with small portions of “char siew” and “wantan”
• Toufoo and Tau Fu Pok (probably Tau Fo Fa also caused I didn’t have any chance to taste it since many years back caused the store is close on Sunday)
• Soy sauce (“sau chi kong” brand)
• Durian
• Various kind of exotic foods (most will think this is for cruel people)
• “Sat ke ma” type of snack that make from flour and malts
• Kaya Puff
• Fresh Water fish

The famous simbalek nut from Raub is selling here (fresh stock from Raub) and of course I can’t left out this “tin kai mai” (frog meehon), where my colleagues is “sek tou fan cham mei” (wanted to eat again). My hubby also likes it very much. I dare not say the shop I bring them is the famous “tin kai mai” in bentung. This is rather a common food you can find at Bentung. Wait one find day and I will post the photo in my blog.

This is the special pre-post to satisfy my colleague who can’t find their way back to that restaurant, thus i hereby draw the map to “Nga Si Si”. I bring them to this restaruant caused the price here is cheaper. most of the restaurant (tai chow - chinese cuisine) at bentung is nice. The “ham yue fa lam poo” at Nga si si used to be very nice. The last time I eat there is not good at all (rated below average, for bentung standard)… hemmmm I couldn’t figure out either is the father or the son did it… recommended you to order steam cat fish as well. It is always fresh… the meat “Tan Nga” especially the “min g tan” and also try the “chui pai tou foo”. And if you want some more, ask the cook for the “la shou hou choi” /signature dish

Last but not least there is this home made “hong tou suet/ping” (red bean ice) sell by one of the store at Kampong Perting… I have never seen any similar one sell at some other places, simple preparation that suit my taste. Draw the map to this store? I think this is crazy, you will never find it, and somebody who knows kampong perting will understand. Not many know about this red bean ice, it’s not famous but is in my list of the food that I treasure for. The photo is coming soon. and the map to nga si si, almost kill me. “Nga si si” is open at night, business start from 5:30pm onwards

My Secondary School…..

Few days ago I bump into a guy in the lift at my condo. He asked “are you from Bentung” I am quite curious. We have short conversation and found out that there are few more units they are from my same hometown. The guy seems like knowing my father!!

This morning I saw another neighbor a few floor beneath my unit, and she ask me whether my sister is visiting me on last Monday…. I guess she is one of them from Bentung and then found out that actually her sister is my elder sister and cousin sister classmate. We chit chatting for a while and she was surprised to found out that I actually study at this kampong school…. Ya it seems a bit odd…and its really long story. I think this is my fate!!!! I am very sure I will not me today if I go through the same school with my siblings.

I have 2 brothers and 2 sisters and I am the middle one and the only child in my family who ended up in Malay/National School. All my brothers and sisters are Chinese educated. I actually study Chinese syllabus during my kinder garden year. My father is very conservative and I should go to Chinese primary school as well. My parents told me that the school I suppose to go was full. For that particular years, students overwhelming and require early registration as compared to previous year.

No story books for me because all the reading material is in Chinese including news paper… I remember my sister got a lots book to read… all the Chinese history book, Chinese chest, philosophy… etc those all belongs to my father and story book especially the “wu shia siau shoa” that I couldn’t understand. Thus Till now I am still not picking up the reading habit but I really wish I owned those nice fairy tales story books with lots of pictures during my chilhood...
i still enjoy reading one now and I couldn’t stand those books with lengthy words…sure will fall asleep less than 1 minutes. I love books as long as got a lots of pictures…interior design magazine is my favorite

Nothing wrong studying in my primary school. It is around town and has mixed of malay, Indian and Chinese Students. Just the different is I always have no homework compared to my sibling and also I no need to remember the “chen fa biau”. (The time table. 2x2=4 kind of thing)…. I guess I am enjoying my childhood life… no tension, no exam, no study… play only. Believe me, I didn’t remember any exam, oral test or whatsoever until I grow up and look at my report card…..
Ohhhh….the english oral test must be the time when the teacher asks me to stand up and readlah and now I understand what is the once a year event where the teacher asking me about my father occupation, where I stay and etc and this is for lisan bahasalah… I really thought they wanna know my family orcare about me :)....... I really have no idea what is oral test during my primary school.

Then this is about my secondary school… the unique school located at Malay kampong off the town. hardly find any Chinese there and please imagine lah… I have cultural shock the first day at TAR college… first in my mind… why so many Chinese lah… (basically no malay in TAR) and this is totally the opposite compared to my secondary school …

Technically all the students from my primary school should proceed to the designated secondary school around town. Ya!!! But not for me and few other chinese students. I also have no idea who is implementing the student exchange program. Send the chinese student from town to the national school located at Malay kampung and vice versa..thus the malay being exchange to katholic school (still a national school) where majority of the students are chinese… and it only lasted for one year…. We are the first batch and the last batch……study at this kampong school which is isolated to the Chinese people in town. The people studying there are 99.9999% malay and majority of them are from rural area. (Settlement from plantation area under government plan)


Yeah….big different……… I don’t have many friends can hang out caused the malays are staying far from town and have different cultural background.. The biggest event is visiting classmate during hari raya.. I am really sua ku one… didn’t really read any news paper during my secondary school…..and life is just contained in a box… my school and home… I can count my chinese friends/school mates with my fingers but we are quite close to each other…no school bus from town caused no crowd..and we will normally take the normal bus and the driver... hate us and will always stop very far away from the bus stop..
Other might have choice to choose to study account but my school is really lousy… have no class for accounting, no girl guide or boy scout… and the worse is no class for mother tongue (caused too few students) and we are forced to stay in agama class. (Religion class) but we are allowed do our own thing. Yeah… but my principal is handsome “kwai lou”… don’t play play!!!

At first I was thinking… ya just spare me 3 years and after SRP I will go to form 4 back to town…. Dreaming lah…. My school upgraded and start offering science stream for form 4. Lucky me? I am the 2nd batch student and my request for transfer is not approved. @#$%$#@#
So sad… but then I say to myself never minelah…. Wait for my form 6 and then I will go back to school at town and study together with my long lost classmate during my primary school…haaaa… in 1988, the education ministry is implementing new policies that only students who have credit in Bahasa Malaysia can proceed to form 6 in government school (including science stream)….whylah wanna do this to me…my worst subject are languages and all the while I didn’t realize the important of it until I start working…
I am the top student for 5 consecutive years but doesn’t mean that I am good. I have no idea why I didn’t score well for SRP and SPM. My score have a huge gap compared to my closest competitor. I guess my teachers know me and they have the patient to read my writing… I failed to get credit for Bahasa Malaysia and that’s why I ended up study form 6 at TAR college and experiencing the cultural shock…… why so many Chinese one ahhhhhh and I used to “tuk loi tuk wong” (doing things alone) but of course I have changed so much during my part time study after form six… I learned to be independent, pick up English conversation skill, outspoken and overcome shyness. I am still picking up my social skills… and also my English grammar that I not really good at …

I don’t know how am I today if I go to form 6 in government school… and probably I am one of the local university graduates… ya no need to think…very straight forward and just study only.......
I faced quite a lot of problems after form 5 ... I lost my direction and in dilemma… indecisive wheter wanna take up fashion, interior, advertising? or continue form 6 or how? Money is an issue and I am very confused. No guidance… The first year in TAR was quite fun. Later the year my father goes to Taiwan to work. I was so down. two of my study kaki transfer back to government school.. Half blaming and keep up giving excuses… and basically can’t adopt to it… late to class everyday… lost in class..busy jot down the notes that I missed out and most of the time can't see from far and occationally miss classes as well.....ya sometime raining, no buses.... and many more excuses... Wasted 2 precious years there….

So I always curious when stranger come to me and ask whether I am from Bentung… normally I found out the answers that they know my father, big bro or elder sis. Once they was this con man at pudu raya who told me that he is my schoolmate…"you are from bentung isn’t… you are from that “”school isn’t? ohhh ya no... you are from different class and I used to notice you in school" and etc keep trying and asking me to go for drinks. Hmmm this is not work for me leh. I insisted that I don’t know him and at last he ask me for RM2 for drinks… of course I didn’t give him lah…

Happy 2007… my lucky year…

I believed this year will be my lucky year….yeah hoping for prosperous boar years…
CNY coming soon… and boar should be a good sign for me.
I remembered the last time I go out celebrating New Year was during the millennium years countdown at KLCC… ohhh boy… it’s was such a long time ago. No wonder I am still thinking that I am 28. Ya I think it is no harm!!! My heart will always be 28.

This year no countdown as well but I was with my hubby at his friend house welcoming the new years. It was quite fun…getting to know some new friends, chit chatting… eating and drinking… yeah I found out that I like Baileys a lots, a sweet drink that can make me feel goods. Aduh…. I have consistently drinking for a week… like addicted already… I think I shall forget the side effect of the alcohol and keep up this once in a while..

I have a good start of 2007. Yeah despite of increased toll rates, believe me… I kena “kau kau” for the saga highway and the karak highway. Daily leh… just saga itself cost me RM3.80… yeah and the weekend trip back to bentung… kau lik
Yeah what is so good ya … nothing big but just the feeling being lucky. I went to Genting to see uncle Lim. My first time, gambling on the casino table (playing the tai sei) … yeah although just wining less than RM200 but it’s really give me the umph….
I bet 4 times and win all rounds. … got the first two “tai” correct, strike the lucky number 10 and then the last game I also got it correct after last minutes decision to change the bet from “tai” to “sei”.. What next, just cabut lah and hoping this will bring me luck for whole 2007.
Yeah why only got so little ya…. After striking the number 10? (Payout 1 to 6) heeee have to offset the money that I lose for the machine lah… not even last for 5 minutes… RM100 gone to the machines…n thus decided to go for table betting.

I was giggling when I saw 10 lighten up on the casino table and the rest might think… aiya…sap sui lah… but this is my first bet on number for "tai sei" wor….of course excitedlah. i don't even have a chair to sit ... just throw my chips from far.

And of course my lucky feeling is not finish yet, we went for video games after casino. My hubby just loaded in RM30 and after few games seems like pening already… thus we go out and saw the fun fare type of game… I was standing there quite sometime try to figure out the game… the guy also tak layan me… and then I ask him what is all about … what can I get bla… bla…. price if we hit the color hole… I am so blur… look for the nearest hole which is red… tung tung tung… the ping pong hit the middle hole (jingle) which is the big price…. I was so happy… the day on my wedding anniversary and we like bringing back a new family member… tabby the tiger, because my hubby will always say wanna throw my soft toys and how to expect any on the bed… tabby now is on my bed… but aiya.. genting ha… mana ada bagi good quality toy one lah…the material is not nice to hug for sleep but tabby still considered family member lah sitting in my bedroom... very hard to get this status.

now is few day after new year but still wanna take this opportunity to wish everyone happy new year. A good ending of 2006 and good beginning of year 2007…..

Earth Status Report - 2006

If the population of the Earth was reduced to that of a small town with 100 people, it would look something like this:

57% Asians
21% Europeans
14% Americans (northern and southern)
8% Africans


52% women
48% men


70% coloured-skins
30% caucasians


89% heterosexuals
11% homosexuals


6 people would own 59% of the whole world wealth and all of them will be from the United States of America
80% would have bad living conditions
70% would be uneducated
50% underfed
1 would die
2 would be born
1 would have a computer
1 (only one) will have higher education

When you look at the world from this point of view, you can see there is a real need for solidarity, understanding, patience and education.

Also think about the following
- This morning, if you woke up healthy, then you are happier than the 1 million people that will not survive next week.

If you never suffered a war,
the loneliness of the jail cell, the agony of torture,
or hunger,
you are happier than 500 million people in the world. If you can enter into a church (mosque) without fear of jail or death, you are happier then 3 million people in the world.


If there is a food in your fridge,
you have shoes and clothes,
you have bed and a roof,
you are richer then 75% of the people in the world.

If you have bank account, money in your wallet and some coins in the money-box,
you belong to the 8% of the people on the world, who are well-to-do.

If you read this you are blessed because you don't belong to the 200 million people that cannot read.

As somebody once said:

" - Work as if you don't need money,
- Love as if you've never been hurt,
- Dance, as if nobody can see you,
- Sing, as if no one can hear,
- Live, as if the Earth was a heaven."

So start living & stop worrying, You don't know how lucky you are!

Happy Dong Zhi 2006

Dong zhi is around the corner. Although Christmas and New year is always celebrate about the same time but to me this is just an ordinary day. I brought up in typical chinese family back ground.. Winter solstice a very important festival and its bring me a lots of sweet childhood memories

Dong zhi is actually fall on 22 Dec... and this is the only chinese festival that is fixed on the same date every year.
I have this Tangyuan in my fridge that I bought from tesco quite sometime ago. As usual, i will keep everything until expired... but this round, the tangyuan is just at the right timing... i don't think i will go shopping this few days... i actually stock-up some frozen foods few weeks back for my dinner caused my hubby is going outstation for 2 weeks.... hehehe I couldn't believe i can skip so many dinners :) or else no more tangyuan...
this year dong zhi is on Friday and just a coincident that i will go to my colleague bachelor party. ...hmmmm my hubby got work to do and i think its will be yummy to have it for supper with my hubby after the party

Actually i am asking my hubby to celebrate dongzhi almost every year..... hemmmm he brought up in malay kampung...and don't have much feeling about this special festival.
For the pass few years, i normally will go to any chinese restaurant and order some special dishes to celebrate the big day but its really "lang ching ching"!!!! and don't really have any "dong jit hei fen" at all.
its will never be the same even i am going back to celebrate with my parent nowdays. its just not same but i will keep the good memories in my heart... don't know why, probably just the feeling or the way we see thing is not the same anymore.

i really miss this.

• The smell of jostick, chinese celery and the chinese rice wine for the prayer..
• The taste of "pak jam kai" and the special dish by my mum... with the warm feeling of eating with the whole families and the treasure of being compete with my siblings for nice foods...
• The feeling of Chinese New Year is coming soon... still can hear my mum telling us " sik chor tong yuen, jau tai yat sui ke la, kuo chor dong jau hou fai kuo lin ke la. meaning we are one year older after we took the tangyuen and CNY is coming soon. i always anxiously waiting for CNY and the feeling is like taking few months to reach the day..really long... counting the days... kids ma nothing to do just counting for the day...but now without realise... 2006 almost finish..and my brain still very fresh about y2k and of course now the feeling of CNY is totally different, you will be "tau han"... if you have to budget for your CNY expenses...but i still treasure and enjoying these special days...

I would like to wish everyone Happy Dong zhi. eat more "tang yuan" and hope our chinese tradition will preserve and pass-on to the next generation..

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The Winter Solstice Festival (Chinese: 冬至; Pinyin: dōng zhì; "The Extreme of Winter") is one of the most important festivals celebrated by the Chinese and other East Asians on or around December 21 when sunshine is weakest and daylight shortest, i.e. on the day of the winter solstice (see also jiéqì). The origins of this festival can be traced back to the Yin and Yang philosophy of balance and harmony in the cosmos. After this celebration, there will be days with longer daylight hours and therefore an increase in positive energy flowing in. The philosophical significance of this is symbolized by the I Ching hexagram fù (復, "Returning"). Traditionally, the Dongzhi Festival is also a time for the family to get together. One activity that occurs during these get togethers (especially in the southern parts of China and in Chinese communities overseas) is the making and eating of Tangyuan (湯圓, as pronounced in Cantonese; Mandarin Pinyin: Tāng Yuán) or balls of glutinuous rice, which symbolize reunion. Tangyuan are made of glutinuous rice flour and sometimes brightly coloured. Every one in the family receives at least one large Tang Yuan and several small ones. The flour balls may be plain or stuffed. They are cooked in a sweet soup or savoury broth with both the ball and the soup/broth served in one bowl.

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Being tagged by Patrick again?

I like being tagged…..at least I have something to contribute in my blog. This is good caused I do not really need to use my brain to think about the subject.
Thanks Patrick to give me another chance to keep up my writing…… I have almost give up.

Four things many don’t know:
[1] Me
[2] Me
[3] Me
[4] and Me lor...

Four movies I can watch over and over:
[1] Sum Sei Kun/Siu Lam Jok kao/kung Fu( by Stephen Chow)
[2] Bone Collector
[3] Mighty Joe Young
[4] Mang Kwai Chut Chai (by Jacky Cheung and Hui Kun Ying) you should know by now that i like movie very much...

Four places I have lived:
[1] Bentung
[2] Klang
[3] Klang Valley (many places until I lost count)
[4] Kajang…haha I have settle here.. so far away..

Four TV shows I love:
[1] Ripley believes me or not
[2] American Funiest Home Video
[3] Guiness World Records
[4] Phua Chu Khang not bad.... this is the only sitcom i am looking foward to watch

Four places I have been on vacation:
[1] South Africa
[2] China (kwong nam yat tai)
[3] Bangkok
[4] Siem Reap

Four of my favourite foods:
[1] Chicken Wing (deep fry I guess is the best… can’t even choose which is the best… chicken wing will do)
[2] Pork Ribs (yummy..)
[3] sam chang yuk (pork belly with salted fish)
[4] Fish paste (yu wat with anything)

Four places I’d rather be:
[1] pyramid of Egypt
[2] Macchu piccu
[3] Easter Island
[4] Hawaii, Tibet, Mongolia and many mores..4 places where got enough. Basically everywhere under the sun.

Currently listening to songs:
[1] Mixed english song compilations… hehehe downloadlah all my favorite songs… artist ranging from 70’s till now…
[2] Mixed Chinese song… heeeee same same lah… no budget ma
[3] Jakie Cheung all the selection.
[4] Occasionally listen to chi ching, Kwang liang, hacken and whatever available… anyone wanna share their album. I like wang fei, chang xin je… and of course I like alan and have the CD compilation but my computer CD drive have no sound…

Four other people who will be tagged:
[1] nobody
[2] anybody
[3] somebody
[4] my buddies heeheeee!!!! Any volunteer?

Russian Monster

This creature was found by Russian soldiers on Sakhalin shoreline. Sakhalin area is situated near to Japan, it’s the most eastern part of Russia, almost 5000 miles to East from Moscow (Russia is huge). People don’t know who is it. According to the bones and teeth - it is not a fish. According to its skeleton - it’s not a crocodile or alligator. It has a skin with hair or fur. It has been said that it was taken by Russian special services for in-depth studies, and we are lucky that people who encountered it first made those photos before it was brought away

source : http://www.englishrussia.com/?p=251

Siem Reap 01 Nov 06 - 04 Nov 06

Floating vilages at tonle sap, largest lake in Asia


Life at Tonle Sap


(Top) This family living at the floating village is from vietnam.

Bayon Temple (Influence by Hinduism and Buddhism)

"The smile of Ankor" gigantic Buddha faces facing N, S, E and W on 51 smaller towers

Stone carving decorating the Bayon Temple

(Top)Stone images of celestial Apsara dancers

Jewels of Angkor. Banteay Srei represents the most skilled craftsmanship of sand stone carvings

Ta Prahm. location shoot for Tomb Raider

Cambodian Monk at Angkor Wat

Meet the friendly Tourist Monks from Thailand at Angkor Wat.

The group of monks keep asking me to take pictures together. This taken from my phone camera. They hired a professional photograper to take photo for them...

He paid 1USD for riding the horse to take picture... hmmm i take the opportunity to add into my collection for free.

Bless from buddha!! Amazingly the dragon fly will stay still until i finish the photo session. can somemore pose it higher lower and close-up

(top)This is the common golden yellow dragon fly that we can find it in malaysia. Also available in red.

Different species of dragon fly. Clear and yellow at the tip of the wings. I saw another species there that is very nice... the wing is wavy in blue and yellow..have no idea that the dragon fly there like to take pic.. didn't catch and take pictures for that species. what as waste

Sweet and charming cambodian kid selling things around the temple

(Top)The kid is very sweet approaching me to buying things from him. that moment like wanted to hug him and take pictures. Speak english fluently. He replied to me that he is 12 years old. i commmented"are you sure you are 12 years old and how come you are so short. he replied me softly, " i am cambodian, not very tall like you" .... we all laugh!!! caused i am 5'10"... and he is just right below my waist line only

Sunset on the Bakheng Mountain

sunset on the Bakheng Mountain

Moon at the other corner

Daily Life at the heart of Siem Reap City

Morning market nearby temple at Siem Reap

Cambodian offering buddha located at the middle of the road junction in Siem Reap city

Buddhist Temple for local people

Creative way to make for living

Insect treasure influence by neighborhood country

Frustrated with stupid work

Recently being busy and most frustrated is to compile the presentation slide that being instructed to change pieces by pieces.
i couldn't control my self... really like wanna throw a cake on somebody face
have to do everything all over again again and again...
from change the color of the pie charts to alignment left or right and then correct the rounding issues and then also to apply color coding to number... all sort of number and principally have to do the changes and then slowly copy and paste back to the presentation slide. still have something after 3 round. Can't the boss look at the things at once and decide..?

poor me is this is only the first boss.... and now have to continue to apply the color coding!!!

My 10 Stupid Questions

Rules
1. Place a copy of the rules with the not not a meme
2. Answer the ten stupid questions of whoever tagged you
3. Write ten stupid questions for others to answer
4. Tag three people My 10 stupid questions...

10 stupid questions by Patrick

1. You found a aladdin lamp at Port Dickson...
   I will sell it to the person like patrick who believe in such thing… hehehe I will become billionaires
2. What if some1 come and tell you that u look like a famous actor?
   You look like afghanistani and that’s is amazing that you actually recognise me. I thought everything has been banned by your gavernment
3. How you plan to spend your money given?
   Its depends and for sure something not to do with you!!!
4. When you walk out from the office you found that your
   car left no tyre.....
   My car can work without tyre
5. What did u do when no electric at home?
   Talking to my electrical appliances at home thus they can recover very quickly.
6. Which country is your favorite country?
   Every corner of the world outside my home country is my favourite
7. Why?
   The moon in foreign coutries is bigger.
8. You forgot to bring your hand phone for outting...
   Whats the problem? I am going for outting and not participate in phone talking tournament.
9. Coffee? Tea? or Me?
   Whats is so difficult? Choose between caffien, tannin and foolish… if you are adventurous!!!
   choose all at once and plus me.
10. dont lie....
    I like to lie on my day bed…….whats wrong?

My 10 stupid questions

1. Ah ben look more ham sap or “wong jim” why.
2. Whats make the buddhist monks enjoying taking pictures with women.
3. Whats your reaction if Micheal jackson propose to you?
4. What is the functions of the tail of a cow
5. Why can’t bats sleep stand straight instead of upside down.
6. Why superman wearing red panties from outside?. I think silver is cool.
7. If an allien(ET) approach you and want to bring you to stay in their planet. How do you reject him/her.
8. If the theory of reborn is true and you can choose your next life? what you wanna be and why.
9. why human being have hair covered up the head? and whats the different comparing to somebody that is bald (other than Physically appearance)
10. If god granted you for a wish. what is your wish

Whats next? No such rules that I cannot tag back the person that already participating in this isn’t… kekekeke. Hope you have funs or anybody can think of good answers.. please just comment.

• patric
• sming

MAHJONG

My elder sister’s called me on the phone “tonight we go ah san’s house to celebrate 中秋 (mid autumn festival) ya”. My initial reaction is ““ha? Still 中秋? Whats are we going to do there?” My sister’s replied “Ah san’s asking us to go to his house to eat moon cake and play cards”

I only got one elder sister and we all call her “tai kar cher” mean big sister in Cantonese and Ah san is my younger sister.

Even though mid autumn was over a week ago, but after all I think family gathering and playing cards session is not too bad. I just said yes without checking with my husband whether he can make it or not. I was just wondering, why this round is playing cards instead of our usual mahjong games (our most favorable family outing). My whole families enjoying playing mahjong including my 3 year old nephew but not my husband. That’s why card games come into the pictures. My younger sister’s worries that my hubby will be boring. My hubby enjoying card games but he only know a few simple games.

My hubby’s was trained by his parents from young, not to touch anything related to gamble (mahjong and cards) and no exception even though playing for funs . Maybe this is the reasons he has no interest at all with mahjong. My late father in law’s was a mahjong operator. Basically he provides the amenities for mahjong game (place, mahjong tiles, drinks and foods) and in return he gets some commissions. It’s pretty common to find such a place in china town and normally these activities will be carried out at various associations.

Maybe my hubby also finds the mahjong too complicated. I really kowtow to the elderly who actually counts the points very quickly. Me my self having hard time of counting my fingers.

Good sides of mahjong

• Fun game to pass time
• Enhance relationship between the players. Basically you have the time to chit chatting about anything during the mahjong sessions. (of course we have to understand the “money” is not so much about gamble but just some incentives for you to stay awake and we all play among families members/friends… not so much of the money issues. Don’t ever play with the “lan tou kwai” (those who really gamble). This is totally the opposite of everything.
• Increase blood circulation. (your heart will beat twice the rate when you are about to get your game points tiles)
• Prevent “lou yan chi ngoi”.
• Good exercise for arms and brain.

That night, we still ended up playing 4 persons Mah Jongs games. My younger sister’s lost 30 cents after 2 games… I think the next time we have to adjust the incentives… or else will really fall asleep. No matter how deep is our loves to the games…

Finding new experience in life

I bought a concert ticket!! Perform by my so call idol during my teenager age. Yes!! Alan Tham concert on my special day. A bit sad caused my dear hubby’s don’t want to come along. Yeah no excuse that he don’t know the songs… but to me it is all about the moments being and doing things together. Don’t you girl out there have the same issues with guys… its really hard to make them understands. Most of the time!!

I found out that he actually knows quite a bit of Alan’s songs, but maybe these songs don’t seems like trigger any special memories in his life or he is just being stubborn as per him. Thus instead I go with my elder sister's and ah Juan's, my brother in law.
Hahahaha 3 middle age fellows, go for a concert for the first time!!!! Really “sua ku”.

So somebody might think ohhh! My hubby’s must be the fans of late leslie’s, so he hates Alan’s!! Or maybe he doesn’t even like music. hahahah!! Not even close…Believe me, he is actually listening to those hokien songs. “su su liam liam, su su liam liam” kind of song during his teenager age. No offend to hokien lang here. Caused I don’t really have any idea I will marry to a hokien lang. I don’t even speak or understands a single word. And I am not even known that not all malaysian chinese is actually understand Cantonese. i thought everybody speak cantonese and I found out the true when I work at klang right after I finished my form 5. I was so naïve at that time. When I first expose to these hokien song, I was really laugh out loud . The language sounds rude or feeling like speaking dirty words or very yoke ma in cantonese. This is just because I used to cantonese and I think probably hokien lang should have the same feeling for Cantonese.

Ah Juan's cantonese is worse than my hubby's or the best is" ½ kati, 8 tahil" or "bun ken bat liong". I did ask him, whether he knows alan's songs? And in fact he really did. He used to listening to Alan’s song during his teenager time and my sister's told me that he used to pronounce Alan’s name as “Tham Mei Loon”.

So why suddenly 3 of us have the urged to go concert and some more I am going without my life companion being with me on my special day? somehow and somewhat remind us of our value for life.

Ah Juan father's was living alone at his remaining years of his life. His wife goes earlier before him. As usual, the elders at rural area won’t like city life. I think just because they don’t like to change their life style… probably we will think what life style they have at kampung? His daily life is just a simple routine. He is enjoying collecting rubbish. Whatever you can name it. The rubbish he collected pilled up his whole house and he only leaves a narrow way leading to his room.

His other hobby is attending those Japanese company sales talks and collecting the little free gift by end of every session. Bottom line is collecting every single thing that is free and he won’t throw anything at all… including all the left over food.
He passed away somewhere ends of last year and I inherited some of his collections (basket he collected from attending sales talk). his collections were too many and they have to hire lorry for 4-5 trips to clear all the rubbish in the house.

Ah Juan father's did sufferred before he go. His life has changed since he had an operation. He moved to KL to stay with ah Juan's. Since then, he had no more things to do ..He doesn’t enjoy watching TV or reading and basically he had nothing to do. He just sits at the balcony counting how many people or cars has passed by. And the fact is thier apartment is isolated… you will hardly see more than 10 people/cars a day. You know what’s the common thing will happen to old people after operation…no appettide, then weak and fell. his health deteriorate day by day. the last moment is just lying on bed counting the days and it take him around a year time.

One thing he reminds us is to enjoy our life. Pursuing and experience all kind things while we still can. It is important that we have hobbies but the most important things here is adapting to the environments. Always finds new hobbies and don’t “sek ku pat fa”.

I do not know how long I can live. can I live until old age? Alone or with my hubby? No one can guarantee we can still stand or walking or even alive tomorrow. Most of the singer during my teenager age has gone. Daniel Chan, Loh Kei, leslie, teressa teng and the most recent Anita Mui. Thus please spend your money and do whatever thing you wanna do… or experience new things and you may find out that you like it or the worst is just keep it as an experience in your life.

Some how I found that the concert is not that bad…just alan’s sang too much mandarin song. When he sings those Cantonese songs, I have this feeling that I am back to my teenager life. Experiencing the thing that I never been thru during my teenager life… screaming!!! like I am 18 years old. I saw my sister enjoying too. She never failed to respond to alan’s and the crowd. She is asking me “why I am not screaming”. of course sometime i keep quite!! “I just wanna save my voices for my favorite songs” I replied. It’s too bad that Alan’s didn’t sing 忘不了你.

She asked "which singer o'jin likes ya and we will go the next time". She used to spends wisely and me as well. Maybe we are not from wealthy family or we actually inherited our parents’ conservative genes. She is now even signed up for slimming course. As long as we are happy!!! The money we spend is really worth it.
But please remember ya!! don’t spend until you have to suffer at later life ya!!!! Enjoy two years and suffer the rest of your life. As long as you are spending the money you owned now… then you are saved :P and of course save for rainny days

Just another murder case!!

I walked to the morning market with my hubby just located nearby my condo on last Saturday. This is not a normal usual days. Many cars jam up the whole Sungai Long. I can smell the fuel emission from the vehicles polluted the whole areas. As I reached the guard house, my hubby approaches the guard and asking him what’s happening. The guard told us that a tarcian got killed yesterday and the policeman is putting up road block at the exit way from Sungai Long. The incidents took place at Taman Rakan (adjacent to Sungai Long) and he has no further information’s. This is seems like a major case and I never seen this kind of situation since I shifted to my condo 4 years ago. The Cars are pack up full at the main road and all the inner lanes in front of the shops house as far as visible by my naked eyes

We have one common thought…what wrong with Tarcian students… We already heard two cases recently which caused their life. They are just ordinary students, are they rich? If this is so, and just take their money, and go lah…….Why killed them…
We are just discussing the matter along the way to the market and maybe it is just coincident caused both the two cases happened nearby UTAR and the majorities who walking back home are students. And on the other side we are debating whether there are just the targets. If this case is similar to the previous two cases, which is geographical disperse and probably the rumors have a concrete based. We just become very curious and proceed to approach the people at the market.

As we first reached the chicken store, I just do not hesitate to ask the chicken seller while buying some chickens. “What is the traffic jam all about ya?”.
“yalah! Police road block this morning!! ” the chicken seller replied…
My reaction is “ha?This morning? There are still many cars piled up in fronts of the junctions and roads nearby my condo”
He just replied “Just now the cars were queuing up from here till end of the stretch of the market … the traffic is clear now”. (The wet market at Sungai Long is just along the road side and there are just few cars around)

By then I already get what I looking for but I am still didn’t get the answers yet. We stop by the next store at the makcik nasi lemak store… and my hubby was chit chatting with her and then asking her what is happening…
The makcik said” dengar ada orang India gaduh. ada orang mati… sampai kepala tak jumpa” We are just listening. Again it is an issue with Indian gang fighting which happened quite frequently and I am relief caused nobody is actually picking up on tarcian students …it’s just rumors only….

Then we proceed to the next store, we saw our usual fruit seller at the vegetable store discussing about the incidents… and we just “kay poh” for a while….

Aiii!!!! To my surprise… it is totally another story… this round is the students age 16 years old… beat to death by a bunch of Malay boys…

Seems like their story is more reliable caused they had mentioned that this has been published in news paper… the boy is from Mahkota Cheras (nearby neighborhood) and he is not the one who picking up the troubles… he died for his friends.
The vegetables sellers, “the mother and the daughter” were arguing in hokien... I am asking my hubby what they are talking about… its seems like they are discussing what to do during this kind of crisis… the daughter said call the police and the mother disagreed and said that the police won’t response to us so fast… and added that the friends and people around should helps.
The daughter disagreed and commented “who dare to help? They already warned that anyone trying to help, they will beat him till die”.

And now I understand what will happen when information passes around.
We just stop asking anymore and go to the nearby store and pick up the star when we finished the marketing. As usual we can’t find any news on this kind of incidents in the star.

No matter what’s the story is… the fact is our society is demoralize now days. Killing a human being is no longer a concern to many out there. Either the killer (no reasons to kill) or the society at large (This is just another murder case. What is the big deal?).
People are just watching others being rob or killed without any helps. Or maybe! The people are actually caring but just helpless…. What’s to do and I don’t think I dare to intervene any fighting by my self. I am scared too.

I hope for all the Malaysian, please stand up and fight for our rights! The rights to live in a peaceful country and for me this is the basic rights for living!!! 團結就是力量
ya … I know… saying is really easy..!!! MALAYSIA BOLEH!! Kita saja ingat apa pun boleh tapi sebenarnya banyak yang tak boleh.

Any hero or heroin out there? Superman? Batman? Spiderman? Please protect us!!

Random 6 of me

I guess i am still new to blog world caused its take me a while for me to figure out the meaning of being tagged by a blogger. Lets play the "小玩 意" brought you by Sming , Miss AmBank travel year 2006.

I always dreamed to live in a perfect world. Like the most common quote by the beauty pageant, “world peace” and I guess we all realize that this is no such thing as “世 界 和 平” and my biggest dreams are:

• Travel around the world. Hopefully I will gain the title “miss AmBank travel year 2007” (I think this is unlikely and you know lah…very hard to beat sming).
  A long way to go… I have just travel to few countries only.

• Retire by age of 40 and participate in some social works activities. I always believe it is good to contribute something to the society. The clock is ticking very fast… and I doubtful I can fulfill this. Never mine…大 有大 做 and 小 有 小 做… maybe small contribution once in a while will do. Money is very important to me and this is why social work come into my mind and not money contribution. 有錢出錢 沒錢出力 and for sure this is not the same if I am millionaires and I think I will contribute both.

• Indulge my self in good food and have a warm and comfortable home. Actually I am introvert or the homely type of person. My hobby is lying on a comfortable sofa/bed enjoying movies/music and sancking some foods. Foods!! ya yummy foods and guess what my animal sign is boar!!! heheheheh. 吃 飽 就 睡 睡飽 就 吃 but don’t get me wrong, I only like delicious foods. Few of my colleagues already complaining that I am picky for foods. The most difficult questions is “what's for lunch today”

• I would like to have a home that have a private land that allows me to do some gardening at my retiring age. I really think about my future, ya till my retiring age. no play play. Of course the most important thing is to live my full life together with my family members.

• My nightmare during my childhood is Japanese war...etc and I separated with my families and I still have some sort of these nightmares sometime. I guess I love my family too much and I am very scared to lose them. I am now hoping for a new life to contribute some noise in my life..i have been enjoying my quiet life with my hubby for quiet sometime.

• I like money very much!!! Without money I can’t travel and I can’t own my dreamed home and i can only contribute very little to the society. I have given this job to my hubby since the day i marry him. My dear hubby, you are my biggest hope!!
  I have no hope for $$$ at AmBank but working life here is pretty relax as compare to my previous company. I used to be very ambitious at work. Not any more and I realize that it is very hard to accumulate our wealth from employment. I am now just hoping to work in a friendly working environment. No politics and just enjoying coming to work… seems like a very simple thing but actually not. I am happy now caused we have a bunch of friendly colleague in AmBank… Keep up the spirit… travel!! Eat!!! And have funs!!! yeah..

so what's next... i only new few bloggers and all has been tagged except Jason Low

used to be my e-pal

I used to have a e-pal few years back. at first, quite ok caused he is my forwarded mail supplier and we also later become friend and in fact i also introduce him few friends.
Not easy to find a true friends...and for some reasons we stop communicate to each other in recent year.

I doubtful maybe my requirement to qualify for the word "FRIEND" is very strict. I have lower down my expectation very much after all these years. no expectation mean no dissapointment

but about this so call my longest epal...maybe he is a good guy but the fact is he always tell me the story that make me doubtfull and i just don't know how to explain.
He will keep telling you he promoted...from 4k to 6k and etc within a year "in my heart what are you going to proves?" ok just cool... i just ignorelah and congrate him.

When i lost my nissan, he will advise me to buy BMW, CLK etc. am i normal if i was thinking that he is actually not honest and trying to prove something? where the hell i can afford it lah? ... and i just act normal and told him that i can't afford it now but doesn't mean that i can't in future. he will just call you to tell you that his friend wanna sell his CLK... APAlah... is this a correct channel.
this is no ending story... much more thing bla bla bla, and very naturally in my mind!!! yau mou ahhhh!!! I knew him about six year and i never ever have the chance to see his car...from his Camry to his BMW bla bla bla...

and today 13/09/06 for certain reason, we did communicate and I "Cha" him "kau lik"

e-pal : hi wat a surprise that you can forward mail to me.......btw how r u??
(The reason, i am very "tai leong" (forgiveness), i have just forwarded mail to friends in he is in the list)

me : You must have did something bad in order for you to think like this…I am very good. How about you?

e-pal : me damn good... coz i am now at chian shenzhen.

me : What is so damn good about shenzen. The food is expensive… and crime rate is very high. You better be careful.
This is what happen to my friend working in shanghai. He won’t stay at shenzen for anything not related to work. He will choose to go back to shanghai immediately after meeting. Probably he just picky..

e-pal : ai ya never mind lah whether the thing is expensive or not coz i m not using my pocket money to pay for those thing wat..... everything is cover by company. crime rate is totally no concern with me lah coz i in and out is guide by security guard fr the supplier company :)
(security guard!! believe him?)

me : You bring the security guard back to the hotel? such a waste, like “cho kam” (prisoner) If the guard is women, nice lah. I think probably you like the “pak ku” (chinese prostitue) there, but don’t go alone!!! Bring along your security guard. The thing there is really cheap except the food. Don’t eat too much, jaga your weight

e-pal : ha... they do got arange girl sercive too :P you already got bb??how's yr work??alreaedy promoted??this month end i m going to siem reap for holiday hehehe.....

me : Aiya!! Becarefull of aids!!. And also becarefull “pak ku” con your money!!!
Will go holiday during raya and Christmas. Probably will go either siem reap/Hanoi and new Zealand!! Involve in project now and really hard for planning. I have to cancel the trip to hong kong/macau/zuhai … probably will re-plan. My friends work at zuhai, maybe will go to visit him.
The other work at su zhou, shanghai and shan tou… they all know each other, and we have plan to meet somewhere… and is pretty hard caused very hard to find a good time.

e-pal : ic i went to hk disneyland that day hmm.... damn nice oso lah.siem reap will go this month end lotz of ppl say nice oso but one thing is we hv to use USD there :(


me : Disneyland… most people said not nice.. very hot and not many thing yet. What time they start the firework…
Friend just come back and told me that hoi yeung kong yuen better. but Disneyland still in my plan, think have to pay more instead of taking the cheap air ticket..
Was lucky caused air asia did refund me some money!!

e-pal : the firework start at 8pm and hoi yeong kong yean no body go there anymore then will close the door this year end. the disneyland is depend on when you go if summer sure lah damn hot.....

me : Aiya… the firework is the closing part… they close so early ka…I done the survey with friends caused Disney was in my plan. And also browse the info thru the internet… yaloh… may be that day they close early caused you are going there.
(just "taruh" only, already bueh tahan)

e-pal : eh do you know weekday they close on 8pm?? and weekend only the close late?? if you donno pls dont simply say but it ok??............damn it

me : I thought they close early caused you are there… “yeung sui” (ugly)
(hahaha!!! hopefully will end here but he still shoot me back)

e-pal : next time not yet go a place dont simply tembak like "chi siew siew pan toy piew" understand!!!!!

me: It’s doesn’t matter!!! I am very happy today. hahahaha
(Caused just have the satisfaction to make him angry and taruh him )

e-pal : you happy is good lah...me too coz i can now travel the world with free from company no need to headache think about cheap airline or wat budget :)
(aiyah tak mati lagi!!! ezzzzzzzz bueh tahan anymore)

me: Go to shenzen is travel around the world already ka…aiyak, how many countries in this worldlah…or your company have branch in every country… and send you there to enjoy…
Good for you… you rather don’t quit!!! Maybe they will give you share also!!
(now is 14/09/06 9:18am.....I just cannot keep quite, will taruh him back whenever he send me mail... if still cannot I will employ consultants)

e-pal: yupe i do enjoy with this company coz they give me promotion and 5 figure income...better than some ppl still stick with one company with income 4 figure??? and no promotion?? he....... my travel place include Germany,uk,china,japan,hongkong,thailand,cambodia he.... important is free with 5 star class hotel....and no need to look for budget lah kena look for other friends lah to bring around lah.......headache lah u know if we need budget then only can travel ha........
(heard the five figure income so many times...)

me:“Nge tung ngo hok ko yue loi san jeong yau wa lei chi meh”
The pride is not from our own man!!! Is the pride other people give you
(conversation ends 14/09/06)

I always feel enlighthen when this steven chow remind me of his quote in Kung Fu “Nge tung ngo hok ko yue loi san jeong yau wa lei chi meh”
I always have the positive thinking about this quote!! its really work when somebody show off!!! or looking down on us. ya you think i will tell you if i am bilionaires? i definately won't!!!
we have to proud to ourself and yes i am proud to be myself... just me. eventhough i am not bilionaires now and i always believe its doesn't mean we can't in future.
we have to always appreciate what we have now. we must find balance in life and for one thing i am sure that it doesn't mean that we will be happy if we are bilionaires.. just doesn't work like this

my new hitech gadget

This is an argument that technology bring human being closer to each other!!! now we can actually reach people real time at any part of the world, not just emailing but also can have this face to face communication via video call. and this is what my new gadget is offering. I just upgraded my phone to do all this communication thingy and believe me with 1k i have the latest features. 3G enabled. Please take a look!! a special request by Patric to load my new gadget in my blog!!!

On the other hand, i do not know whether technology are really does the great job in terms of enhancing relationship among human being. I have no idea why my nearest neighbour next to me just ignoring me... i was thinking what wrong with me... and after sometime, i also ignoring them.

I believed, this is not just me alone isn't? Its happened to other people as well especially for those living in urban area. yes... i saw some statistic and i just tell my self...is ok!!! i am normal :)... and i just do not know whats wrong with my neighbour next to me. maybe i made too much noise or what.

I had just redeemed a free gift using my bonuslink point. The delivery guy just cannot keep his day and time correctly... and keep asking me who else can he send the pacel to..!!! Who else ya!!!???? and the fact is nobody... nothough we did smile to few friendly neighbourhood, but how to expect them to help ya... we hardly knew or bump to each other. Infact few friends staying nearby the neighbourhood, but my first thought is "how to ask lah? everybody have to go thru their hectic city life" and i hope i am totally wrong!! but i worry i am not.
is this just life and can somebody really make a diffrence? i am trying to figure out how to enhance other people life and is this mean, in return we enhance our own life too? or vice versa!! or this is just one way thingy, feel happy for others!! i just don't know but what i know is the real world is far away from what i dreamed of. this is why i am ignoring many things around me!! i am not aim for mission impossible and just hoping for a neighbourhood that we can minggle around, playing mahjong together and most importantly will help each others in difficulty time...

anybody with similar thought!!! you are welcome to stay at sungai long

Anyhow thanks for the technology, am i actually talking to my computer or talk to many people out there!! and i also wonder what is the posibility that my neighbour will read this!! I guess the the next time i see them smiling at me!! for sure they somehow find out my mini project.
probably i am much more naturally in front of machines instead of human being!!! such a complicated creatures. ya really complicated till i take a very long time to understand myself.