My Dream Job for My Dear Son

Every mother, 望子成龍, there is no exception to me as I am just an ordinary person. During my teenager time, i am confused and a bit loss and not sure what I should pursue for my future career. The struggle between Art, Science or Commerce and with the greatest fear of choosing the wrong field and ended up with a boring life and without any great achievement.

thus my final decision is to choose something that is on the safer side, a degree that can guarantee me a job just for moderate living and the most important is that it is not too difficult to achieve as there were so many other things that I need to consider that Ieave me with not many choices. definitely i will be very different as per me today if I come from a well being family, at least I dare to pursue fashion design and some other thing with no worried about earn for living or a guaranteed for better job or the urge to enlighten my mothers, who work as baby sitter for living after my father had a stroke. i work as a sales promoter and do part time to pay school fees and living. ICSA seems a smarter choice

It took me quite some time to graduate in ICSA, and its just merely RM50, i believe that had change my destiny as I take up the position of account clerk instead of assistant company secretary. and later, its very hard for me to pursue in this line again. I know eventually I will be there but it was a very painful process for me. I made a promise to myself, since very long time ago that if I have my own children and I will give my best to guide them and would not let them suffer as what I have gone through

I realise probably I am also a problem child, indecisive and like to try and experience everything and anything in this world. Everything seems very interesting but a further thought/finding seem that it is not as interesting as i think off and feel emptiness and demotivated. nothing pro but know here and there a bit.. and i do agree that if i have given proper guidance, probably i can decide better and biggest problem is without any guidance and information. The college i visited that offer fashion design seems not convincing. available for me anhave no idea of how to go about it. Probably I will enjoy being an actress, as this will enable me to play many roles including doctor, artist, pianist, cook and many more. Just a nonsense thought now and it does not seem realistic.

After all these years, I realise that all my worried is non-sense but it’s seem too late for me to discover and change my career. My job is nothing to shout about, bored and more boring every day. Probably if affordable one day, all these little dreams will fill up my empty time as hobby, learning drawing, cooking, sewing and being the interior designer for my home. No kidding, I did imagine myself as politician, leader for charity organisation and many more and I had went for an interview for air stewardess right before I am reaching the age limit but after all, I found out that I am just enjoying my motherhood life and the rest is not important anymore.

Now about the future career for Mika’s, it is so weird that i am pretty sure what my preference for him. I would like him to become a famous architect. Not a doctor as he will spend too much time to safe life, not a pilot as this is too dangerous, not a musician, magician, businessman but an architect. Hahaha, probably it is about my dream house and now probably has to leave it to him to realise my dream. I am painting in my mind of our dream home of my own son invention.

But after all, this is just a dream and of course I wish this will come true. But I am not very greedy, I am still very happy, if seeing Mika’s growing up and lives healthy and happily and bringing in more families members to the family and being financial independence and a filial son/grandson.

Mika's is finally walking at 18 Months

It was a long time since my last update on Mika’s development.
A very long journey for Mika’s to leap on his next development, a slip till posing some concern from relatives. Of course, I still hold on to believe that it is not to worry. In my mind, I was thinking that the best is walking at 18 months like his daddy. Not too late to worry me. Of course, initially not to expect that long, but after observing his behavior and I know it is a long way to go. . It is a one year journey, from his army crawling till he mastered crawling on four, Peep pap peep pap from here and there.
Finally Mika’s is showing his interest on walking on his 18 months. He has just realized the benefits of walking rather than crawling, where he have to craw like an army if both his hands grapping on something and with a very ugly crab/handicap crawling style if one of his hand grapping on something.
With an intention to practice his new skill, I brought Mika’s to the park for a walk the first time on last Sunday. At first, he dares not to let go my hand but finally he made it, walking step by step slowly alone at the park. Saw him mostly fall down but managed to push his hand on the floor and squat down and I was thinking, probably this is a wiser choice for him to walk at later stage. Meanwhile I am enjoying a bit as others with the same age have mastered the skill of running. I am imagining myself now, how awful being screaming and running catching mika’s and I hope not till this extend. Please behave my son.
I see my son walking standing tall like a three years old toddler but indeed he is always my little baby, no matter how tall and how old he grows. My mother told me that seeing Mika’s walking remind her of me. She commented that Mika’s walking style resembles me and I am imagine myself now, long waving hands walking slowly with unsteady long legs. I hope I will remember every moment that we spent together forever. If not, I have taken some photo and short video which I don’t have the luxury when I was young.

Mika turning 14 months and yet don't attempt to walk yet

My mika growing so fast and so tall.. catch fever last few weeks and still have flu now.

now is very thin, started calling baba...all the time. 

call me only when urgent, this is what ojin's said.

become very lazy recently, no loading of new photo or blogging..

sooner or later, i will be forgotten everything. how mika growing up. when he first sprouting teeth...and start walking...hope to keep this up.

baby mika.... NOW SLEEPING ZZZZZ very cute with his new pajamas....MUMMY LOVE U very much. Good night my dear and sweet dreams.

The very first moment

i have to mark down this special date, on a very beautiful morning i heard and seeing with my own eyes, my son is calling me mama crawling towards me. A very special moment on Tuesday 9/12/08.

how can i resist him, and the i couldn't describe how happy am i at this very first moment. with the feeling of wanted and important. A very warm hearted feeling and reminding me... yeah i am mummy now of a very special son. 

I thought Mika's learn to call his father first as he always babbling baba baba and he is very excited and cheerful when seeing his father. he is calmer with me and only look for me for food when his father around.

The hard work and time spent taking care of him is just payoff, with such a simple word. mama!!

  

Bravo my little Mika

I believed all the mothers in this world are really proud of their children. We are all the same, giving unconditional love to our children. In every mother’s eyes, our children is the best and they is no exception to my Mika’s. I am just couldn’t describe how much I love him. Sometime my husband throw out the question “We love Mika’s so much, and don’t know whether he will love us as well when he grows up”. I don’t think anyone in this world have the assurance.

Only when i become one of them, then only I truly understand the perspective of a mother . Beforehand I was wonder why my friend keep telling me and highlighting the progress of their children…. Yeah!! In my mind I was asking “what's the big deal?"  Eventually every normal baby will go thru it and what is so excited about it?  

When my baby sitter told me that Mika’s has turnover successfully, I was really happy and couldn’t wait to reach home and see it with my own eyes. I don’t know why I am so happy… the feeling is like a remarkable accomplishment of my own. Of course Mika’s also excited of his new skill and truly show on his face and will quickly move his hand and feet like swimming once he is on his stomach. Bravo my little baby, you have done it on 07/07/08. Do you know that you are waking up in the middle of the night and practicing your new skill? Mummy eyes has become big panda eyes and your daddy is complaining that he has suddenly look like ten years older. 

Time flies, this was about one and a half month ago and now Mika has shown interest with his surrounding. He has started to pull/reach things around him rather than playing with his hand and feet. I guess he is the “kay po” type like his daddy. He normally will turn left and right searching for the person who is talking and find opportunity to interact with them. Now he is still smilling at stranger and I hope he don’t have this stranger anxiety later…..

When Mika’s reached 4 months, I bring him to the pasar malam just right in front of my condo. I guess he was pretty scared. He grabbed me quite tight and stay still quietly but alert. Maybe I am wrong and Mika’s is just observing the surrounding. Probably this exposure was too much for him as this is the first time we bring him out... He had never been to any shopping center yet and its a cultural shock for Mika’s.  

Mummy just have the chance to show off Mika’s pram on last Sunday. It's just a short trip to the store Bentung to grab some necessities before the start of the Badminton match between Lin Dan and Lee Chung Wei, and yet Mika’s has started to show discomfort while waiting for his daddy to pick up his diaper at the second floor. I am amazed how other mummy manages to bring their baby to the shopping center the whole day. It's just too troublesome for me….Emmmmm I know I am the minority.  

Mika’s will reach 5 months next week and will start to provide him solid food when he reaches 6 months. He was looking at me with a confusing look while I am having dinner last night…I am still not quite figure out what happen to him…. Daddy was saying that Mika’s seems wanted to say something but can’t voice out. He have no reaction no matter how we call him and trying to make him smile.  He just starring at me while I am eating and have no reaction also when I put the food in front of him….Emmm luckily he is back to normal after feeding time….. making noises,  singing and playing with his feet and react to his father and as usual from smiling then play until screaming.

Mika development (1 month to 3 month)

By one month old, Mika’s can lift up his head from left to right. I discovered this while exploring ways to put him to sleep. He seems have difficulty to fall into sleep as I am fully breast feeding him after his first month. When the confinement lady around during his first month, she will feed mika’s  as long as he is not sleeping well… yeah the reason is breast milk will not satisfy hunger and have to feed formula milk in order to have deep sleep….. My baby eat all the time and grow up very fast and also make me worry that she overfeed him and have bad impact to his stomach….. I am very angry with the confinement lady after found out that she simply feed mika to get an easy way out. She was feeding Mika’s 4 oz milk with a gap less than 3 hours when he is 2 weeks old. Sometime my heart melts when seeing Mika having difficulty to gulp the milk when she bottle feed him. At one occasion, Mika’s was crying out loud… seems like overfeeding. The problem is Mika’s will drink everything whenever we feed him, probably he had a bad experience during his early days. He has to bear hunger for more than 24 hours as I don’t produce any milk for him yet.

 

After many attempt to put him to sleep, one fine day I just get him to sleep in just one second by putting him lying on his stomach. This is through try and error and it’s amazed me as he is just stop crying and totally switch off and going to deep sleep immediately. This is when I discover that he can flip his head left and right and when he is hungry, he will put his head right on the mattress attempting to latch on and make some noises ehh!!! ehhhh ehhhh.  This is so cute. Sometime I just watch him doing this for a while before feeding him. Will this make me a bad mother? I really enjoy this special moment, to watch his nature instinct to search for food and his satisfying look with great smile when he is full. No though sometime he will have this “pick chick” look or fierce look whenever my milk supply is low. Really scare me like wanna fight with me.

Now Mika is able to do a mini push up – to lift is head and shoulder up. He has mastered this skill two weeks ago when he is two and a half month old.He started to learn to lift his head at 45 degree when he is two month old during our visit back to Muar. He lifts his head up high in front of all the uncles and aunties. My husband commented…. “our son is showing off and doing a good PR”. Yes, he said the same when we visit our baby sitter the day before I started to work. Mika is responding with great smile and talking (making gurgles and coos sound) while I am talking to the baby sitter. I guess he has mistaken that I talk to him but my husband said he is doing PR. yeah like daddy, so “kay po” and me? Of course Mummy is cool and not like daddy. Wait and see Mika’s is inheriting me or my hubby character.

Mika’s has just reached 3 months and I am eager to discover his new skill. He has attempt to flip over and craw recently. He is angry swimming stand still and I taught he wanted to craw. I found out today that crawling shall be master at around six months and he should learn how to roll over and follow by sitting and then only crawling. It is fun to see his progress day by day and I am proud and grateful that I had made the correct decision to take care of him at night and this will ensure that I didn’t miss out any of his growing up progress. Yeah this is Mika’s recent photos (3 months old), posing up left and right enjoying practicing his new skill. 

Ngo Ko Toi

hello there.. whats up!!.

My name is mika lui hahn 梁翰

i can act very cool...

Born : 29/03/08

Weight at birth : 3.69kg

Length at birth : 51.5cm

Finally after so many year..... this is my son "Ngo Ko Toi"...hmmm. as my husband always remind me..... very often smilling and telling me " sayang, Ngo Ko Chai". I am still coping to play the roles of a mother. Now he is chubby already. the above photo taken when he is 3 weeks old.

updates

03/04/08 (6 days)

weight 3.8kg length 54 cm

07/06/08 (2 months 1 week)

weight 6.4kg length 64cm